Tuesday, July 22, 2014

Hello Stalkers!!!

Welp, according to my analytics page, my views have skyrocketed, and for that I must say "thank you"! The more people read my fluff, the higher my confidence grows and my belief that someone, somewhere wants to read about the highs and lows of my life.
Sorry for the delay, I always say that I will blog more but it never happens.
For starters, I got married!! 
Yeah me, the sporadically employed graduate student who is on a constant quest to figure out whats best path in life. Melodrama aside, my wedding was beautiful, you should have been there>>  Of course it started on CP time, what did you expect? but Im thankful for everyone who came to help make it a successful night. I met members of my new family, caught up with old friends, said goodbye to old ways, and made my descent into holy matrimony (tripped over my dress a couple of times).
I got my Masters...sort of
I walked at graduation but I currently have on more course to complete until I am officially done
My head is huge!!
Promotions is making ends meet
aside from my job on campus as a front desk receptionist at the clinic, working promotions is a fun way to bill money. This lady Charro is BIG stuff in a small package

I will write more, I Promise.

Tuesday, October 29, 2013

Im Schleep

We at the same school and I'm ahead of you, but I'm schleep.

I hate the comparison trip but its like people need you to prove why you deserve to be in the same place as them. This is grad school, you have to meet certain requirements to get in, that's all the affirmation you need about me. What you do with your experience its your own.

Tuesday, September 24, 2013

I hate that you deleted your blog

I liked prying into your life as much as you do mine. The purpose of my blog is to let you know little snippets about me with the ultimate goal of landing a job. To support myself, something we all strive to do. I've managed to do a internship for 6 months with refugees in Oakland; a huge personal challenge. If you must know, I'm unfilled. I'm in love but unsatisfied with my life. I thank the Lord I did not procreate because we are in a constant uphill fight against the world. My birthday is next month, I'll be 24! I don't plan to celebrate it, I never intend to celebrate my birthdays but my mom will take me to dinner. Grad school is coming along, but work is more important. I met a friend at school who is the more extroverted version of myself. I see things in her I used to do and no longer desire to do but she is comfortable with me. but she is female so there is competition, inevitable. I feel defeated sometime at school, sometime see no purpose in it, I guess that's why I am always playing catch up. My religion has become yes. Are you a Christian? Yes. but do I go to church, read the bible, talk to God? no. Ive contemplated jumping off the golden gate bridge, more than once. not crazy just tired. Tired of the rat race, secrets, stress, not understanding the purpose of life...But I'm still here. Im going to Boston in November, 2-5th, Im going with the plans of learning more about my career field but fear I will just be disappointed.$$$ trip. I miss your blog, I dont see you anymore and things are strange. you probably dont even think to look at my blog but I just want to let you know that I miss you. You were the only girl I wanted to get to know more about. im sure I will see you again, you will what has changed about me. I guess I will call a maid to clean this mess. I'll see you soon.


Wednesday, May 8, 2013

My Esty Shop Is Now Open

Okay so I planned to write this big blog post about how I got accepted to grad school in los angeles and was preparing for the big move but it didn't happen. Yes! I was accepted to grad school in los angeles but... Reality of not being able to afford housing and overall living hit me like a ton of bricks and I decided it was best if we stayed up this way. I will never get the chance to attend a hbcu which is a little saddening but I plan to get involved in more cultural organizations. I was accepted into another graduate school and classes begin this month. It is a 1 year long program and I am looking forward to it. Been teaching myself Spanish and taking advocacy training courses.

                   Anywho, I'll write more when there is stuff to write about, ps: go to my shop!!

Sunday, March 17, 2013

Boring day

So a lot of things happened since last I post. I decided to give grad school a shot, I have a interview with the school I want to go to April 8th. It was a extremely stressful period leading up to sending my application off. I had spent countless hours studying for the gre, I was basically at the mercy of those whom I requested a letter of recommendation from and I had to find extra money that I didn't have. I got started sending out my requests for lors early but correspondence between myself and my letter writers had felt at a stand still, I became extremely nervous when the deadline was approaching and I had yet to receive anything from one professor. The studying for gre wasn't too bad, all-in-all it broadened my vocabulary and i figured out the tricks you could use when attacking a standardized test. But I made a huge mistake during the test, it was in the beginning section and I had skimmed and planned to return to 6 unsolved problems, but when I got to the end of the section I pressed the wrong button and was not able to go back and answer them. I was livid!!  Those questions were the ones that could have helped raise my score, I couldn't help but feel like I had wasted my time and money, money that I didn't have at the time. The cost cost $185 and the application fees to the schools were $75 and each mailed off app cost $20. I plan to take the gre again in the future, I found out on the ets website that there forms for those that qualify to take the test at a reduced price, so that's good news.
So in April we're making a family trip, everyone is going down to la fun while Im going down to try and open a new chapter in my life.

I always plan to blog a lot more but I like to keep a lot of things to myself. I do need a jobthough, lol I feel like I've blogged about this topic before but it just seems to be a recurring factor  :-) Just something until the summer, I guess I go out and look for it now. Tootles 

Friday, November 16, 2012


It is now mid-November and since then, I quit my job at the casino, I turned 23, my mother had surgery, President Obama held onto the title of President for another 4 years, I work at Saks Outlet store, and I’m one step closer to getting into the Masters program. Because it is now winter and the clothing line from the jewelry pieces/ clothing collection that I was selling were strictly for summer wear, my extra income has dwindled. I STILL HAVE BROOCHES AVAILABLE.  =)  I found a good website called, it gives the public information on open settlements they can get involved in if they can prove their case. I’ve currently been eligible for 2 because of the items I bought at the time but it is a great site to check out.  Also, I started running again. I have a love/hate relationship with running but I will probably have to do it or some other form strenuous working out for the rest of my life. When I ran consistently all through high school and college, I ate A LOT, but now that I’ve gradated and settled into adulthood, I eat A LOT, and there lies the issue. It’s a curse! I honestly try to eat less but I’m always hungry =( I have a 24hr gym membership but I don’t go often, so Monday I’m starting a liquid diet(prob won’t last long) and going to practice as much as I can. Health is important to me, hence the reason why I want to get my masters in the health field. I’m finding it hard to find internships in the health field and someone suggested being a CNA to get experience working with people livelihood. I’ll keep looking and in the meantime I’ll keep writing in my blog, now that I have Betty the PC back =)

Where the BLEEP have you been?

I haven’t been on my computer since AUGUST!! My computer caught a virus and I didn’t want to shell out the $100 to have it fixed so I’ve just been bumming off my bf PC when I wanted the internet. I refused to write out my blog pieces on anyone else’s PC so I am finally posting what I wrote way  back in august!!

At the African Cultural Faire September 1st, Sacramento, Ca
The time has almost come, my big unveiling of my whole reason for creating this blog! One day while I was sitting in coffee shop in the early part of March, I was talking with a friend and was pitching ideas of what type of clothing style would be cool for summer. We talked about different shapes and colors of items we would make but nothing we thought of sounded do-able with our budget. So…. I came up with an idea for a shirt design, and I loved it! My family loved it, my beau loved it, my girls loved it, everyone loved it! The problem was getting the money to get the thing up and running. I worked an extremely part time job while at school so it took me time to buy the things I needed, 5 months to be exact, but in my spare time I mapped out the things I needed and could afford and purchased those first. I purchased the brooch clasps; I also bought 10 shirts in both red and yellow, and lastly, the brass 10x12 sheet, the most important piece of all. Once I bought all these things, the next step was getting the brass cut, and that turned out to be a financial nightmare, I went to a shop in town and they quoted me $$$ for 12 pieces to be cut and I honestly wasn’t expecting that. They told me that they would hold that “deal” for me for a month, a month went by and I still didn’t have any brass pieces, just couldn’t afford it. By now, it was nearing the end of May and I would be graduating in a few weeks, I had managed to save $65 and I really wanted to get the shirts out there. I had already had models set up, my track girls, but I just couldn’t save any more money. May blew past, I graduated, I ran in my final nationals meet, I moved, did some photography while spend the rest of my efforts looking for a job that would provide. All in all, my great idea had gone by the way side. =( but now, 5 fricken months later, and 2 weeks before summer is over lol I finally did it, I got the brass pieces cut and I’m ready to be in business. I will be selling a variety of things, not a big inventory but the brass cutters were able to use the extra pieces of brass and make smaller designs that I found to be useful. September 1st is the African American Cultural Festival at William Land Park in Sacramento and I bought a booth and I will be selling my items there!  I have bandeau tops, tote bags, bracelets, rings and more. I’m so excited, I’ve never done anything like this before, I didn’t give up on wanting to create my shirts; I just knew that it would take me some time to complete it. I created some fliers and other doodads that I think will benefit me at this event.  Anyhow, the name of my line is: Peace After Revolution Designs (thanks Ms Badu) and hence my email being I will be selling my items through paypal this site and you can feel free to contact me through my email anytime.
                                                 ESTY SHOP COMING SOON!