Tuesday, October 29, 2013

Im Schleep

We at the same school and I'm ahead of you, but I'm schleep.

I hate the comparison trip but its like people need you to prove why you deserve to be in the same place as them. This is grad school, you have to meet certain requirements to get in, that's all the affirmation you need about me. What you do with your experience its your own.

Tuesday, September 24, 2013

I hate that you deleted your blog

I liked prying into your life as much as you do mine. The purpose of my blog is to let you know little snippets about me with the ultimate goal of landing a job. To support myself, something we all strive to do. I've managed to do a internship for 6 months with refugees in Oakland; a huge personal challenge. If you must know, I'm unfilled. I'm in love but unsatisfied with my life. I thank the Lord I did not procreate because we are in a constant uphill fight against the world. My birthday is next month, I'll be 24! I don't plan to celebrate it, I never intend to celebrate my birthdays but my mom will take me to dinner. Grad school is coming along, but work is more important. I met a friend at school who is the more extroverted version of myself. I see things in her I used to do and no longer desire to do but she is comfortable with me. but she is female so there is competition, inevitable. I feel defeated sometime at school, sometime see no purpose in it, I guess that's why I am always playing catch up. My religion has become yes. Are you a Christian? Yes. but do I go to church, read the bible, talk to God? no. Ive contemplated jumping off the golden gate bridge, more than once. not crazy just tired. Tired of the rat race, secrets, stress, not understanding the purpose of life...But I'm still here. Im going to Boston in November, 2-5th, Im going with the plans of learning more about my career field but fear I will just be disappointed.$$$ trip. I miss your blog, I dont see you anymore and things are strange. you probably dont even think to look at my blog but I just want to let you know that I miss you. You were the only girl I wanted to get to know more about. im sure I will see you again, you will what has changed about me. I guess I will call a maid to clean this mess. I'll see you soon.


Wednesday, May 8, 2013

My Esty Shop Is Now Open

Okay so I planned to write this big blog post about how I got accepted to grad school in los angeles and was preparing for the big move but it didn't happen. Yes! I was accepted to grad school in los angeles but... Reality of not being able to afford housing and overall living hit me like a ton of bricks and I decided it was best if we stayed up this way. I will never get the chance to attend a hbcu which is a little saddening but I plan to get involved in more cultural organizations. I was accepted into another graduate school and classes begin this month. It is a 1 year long program and I am looking forward to it. Been teaching myself Spanish and taking advocacy training courses.

                   Anywho, I'll write more when there is stuff to write about, ps: go to my shop!!

Sunday, March 17, 2013

Boring day

So a lot of things happened since last I post. I decided to give grad school a shot, I have a interview with the school I want to go to April 8th. It was a extremely stressful period leading up to sending my application off. I had spent countless hours studying for the gre, I was basically at the mercy of those whom I requested a letter of recommendation from and I had to find extra money that I didn't have. I got started sending out my requests for lors early but correspondence between myself and my letter writers had felt at a stand still, I became extremely nervous when the deadline was approaching and I had yet to receive anything from one professor. The studying for gre wasn't too bad, all-in-all it broadened my vocabulary and i figured out the tricks you could use when attacking a standardized test. But I made a huge mistake during the test, it was in the beginning section and I had skimmed and planned to return to 6 unsolved problems, but when I got to the end of the section I pressed the wrong button and was not able to go back and answer them. I was livid!!  Those questions were the ones that could have helped raise my score, I couldn't help but feel like I had wasted my time and money, money that I didn't have at the time. The cost cost $185 and the application fees to the schools were $75 and each mailed off app cost $20. I plan to take the gre again in the future, I found out on the ets website that there forms for those that qualify to take the test at a reduced price, so that's good news.
So in April we're making a family trip, everyone is going down to la fun while Im going down to try and open a new chapter in my life.

I always plan to blog a lot more but I like to keep a lot of things to myself. I do need a jobthough, lol I feel like I've blogged about this topic before but it just seems to be a recurring factor  :-) Just something until the summer, I guess I go out and look for it now. Tootles